Damn them...

Hey hey,

So I had my surgery (long story and that will be made into a new web blog). I can't get in the water for a few weeks and people at work got a bit upset. Not just at the fact that I can no longer do some of my duties but that someone got demoted because of it. They got upset that I am still working. They said I will not be doing any work and I told them that I did more work than them in one day than they did in a week. Words were exchanged basically. One (or both of them) said that they have another job and that is why they are never there so I said that they could go and work there that they were just wasting space at the pool. I am in stitches and I did more work than they did today! All they do is sit on chairs, read, listen to ipods, or sleep.

One of the people had to go into the water for a save and someone else helped them out of the water so they got upset. Instead of checking to see if the child was ok they went back into the stand and just continued to watch the water. So I went over and talked to the child to make sure everything was alright, that he was breathing fine and nothing was hurting him. Then to top it all off, a girl was choking next to the person and they held their hands to their neck (which is the universal sign of "Hey, I am choking!") and instead of seeing if the child was ok, they just continued to read their book. So I jumped over the table and rushed over to her to make sure she was alright. The father declined any help so I went back and made sure that the manager and new head guard ( I was demoted until I was out of my stitches) what had happened. Speaking of being demoted, that was one of the reasons why one of them got mad. Let's call them QB and the other one WB. Well QB was never really at work so another one of the people suggested that she get her position and I agreed. After I got my surgery, I was told that I couldn't be the head guard until I was better so I suggested one person as a replacement. Well, the manager called and asked for the arrangements to be made. They were made and I was told that I was the second head guard and that the one that I suggested was the head guard. QB found out today and basically got upset about it and WB also went along with her. So that is how the whole argument began.

I am just tired of working with people that get away with doing as little work as possible and getting paid for it and nothing happening. That happened at school and again, nothing was done. I heard that WB said they will beat my ass. I would love for them to throw a punch. That way I would never have to see them again at work. They will be fired and never be able to work with the city again. Maybe they will take QB with them! One can only hope :D

As for people that I cannot stand. There is one other person there that I cannot stand, for the sake of argument we will just refer to them as...well them. Well, the first day they called me an ass hole because their things fell off the stand from the wind. Then I told them that they didn't know me so they had to watch how they talk. Then another day they were helping a patron with an injury and said oh hi Mr. Head Guard. As if I was the only one that was supposed to be helping someone. I mean come on. You were trained in first aid too so do work.

I'm just tired of this job. I need to find a new one. Maybe a clothing store! :D

But I need to start my other blog soon. I think I will write it out first then post it all at once as a long blog. I was asked to do pictures too but I will just do my best at describing it :D lol. I think I will call it "Uncut Version to Directors Cut" Hahaha.

Night all!

Hey

So, update on the room. It is finished...well sort of. Instead of having control of my room, the second living room, and the bed room hall way I now have only my room that is pretty messy. I just need to do laundry. :D

Work finally started up on Wednesday. This Saturday is opening day and guess who has open to close? Yep. Me. Not that I am complaining about having to work. I need the money to pay the rest of the London trip. 1000$ paid so far. I want to at least get another 1000$ done this summer and then get the rest during the school year. I applied for two jobs in the chemistry department. One is an Organic lab assistant and the other was a secretary for the chemistry department.

Well, not much more has been going on in my life. Recertification is this Saturday. I always am nervous for it but always do well.

3 weeks

So, it has been almost three weeks since I have been home and I still have yet to finish cleaning my room. It is getting there (I have also been saying that for three weeks).

I was talking to some random people last night and met two really cool people.

So, yesterday I got some awesome news. Well, not all of it was awesome; it was one of those good news/bad news deals. So, I picked the bad news first. At my place of work no one is allowed to work more than 48 hours per week because of budget cuts. I am fine with that. Then the good news was that I was given the position of being the primary head life guard since the person that had the position has another full time job. I was completely ecstatic.

The Chicago 2010 Gay Pride Parade is this month! I almost have my entire outfit put together for the occasion. Well, I should get back to cleaning the room. Again...it is getting there.

London Trip Update:

$1000 of $2500 paid 40% done with $1500 left to pay.

What to do

So, I feel that this post will be all over the place. But simply bare with me for a bit and excuse my excessive use of the word so...I feel it may be used here quite a bit.

So, for about two years or so I have been feeling like I have ruined someones life. And this life that I have ruined is someone that I love dearly. It is my younger sisters life that I feel like I have messed up. I realized, perhaps too late, that I messed it up when I started dating my boyfriend. Do not get me wrong, I love my boyfriend very much but I just wish I was able to change how I acted when I started dating. I made it a top priority to be around him all the time and talking to him and about him to my sister. I did not see the pain in her eyes when I would tell her how much fun I had and how I couldn't wait to hang out with him again.

Then came the part where I finally noticed the part where she changed, again all because of me. I asked her to keep my secret from my parents. My mom finally started asking me if I was gay and I would tell her of course not. I never expected her to go ask my little sister if I were and continue to bother her about this. All the time that she was being bothered I was out with my boyfriend. Then one day after dating him for almost a year my sister came to me crying saying she couldn't take the pain she was feeling keeping my secret from my mom. That was the first time I saw her pain and I realized it too late. I told my mom that I was gay and that I wanted her to stop bothering my sister. When I finally told her my sister was there for me to talk to so I wouldn't feel bad about my moms reaction to me coming out to her.

So, that summer my mom wouldn't talk to me for a while. When she finally did she would not acknowledge the fact that I was a out gay male.

I went to school that year. I was able to keep in touch with my sister for a few months but then I got busy. She started hanging out with people that were not a great role model for her. Drinking, smoking, and swearing all the time. Of course, again I felt this was my fault for practically abandoning her when she needed me and asking her to hold my secret for so long.

Of course from there things just went down hill. Things got worse in the household. It felt like a dark cloud was stationed over my house. I felt her drifting away and I knew that I had caused it. I was the one that started drifting away from her when she needed me the most.

Now when I look back and think of how old she was when I asked her to do all those things for me I realized that I was the one that forced her to grow up sooner than she needed to. That I was the one that changed her and set her up for what may be her downfall.

The relationship we had was built over a long stay in Mexico one summer and I threw that away. I can't talk to her anymore. She sits and listens but I can't help but to think that she isn't really listening to what I am saying to her. I tell her that I want to have the same relationship we used to and how much I want to hang out with her again. But her idea of hanging out is a few hours and then running off with another friend. What hurts the most is I know that what I feel when she would run off to hang out with someone else is what she felt when I would run off to hang out with my boyfriend. It hurts. I cannot believe I put her through this over and over again for over a year. A year.

I want to have the relationship we used to have. Now I can barely talk with her without her getting into one of her angry moods. Today we had one of those. She asked me to ask my dad for money so she can get gas. I asked her what she was going to do and she became upset with me. For simply asking her what she was going to do. She wouldn't talk to me afterwards. I tell her that I am sorry for putting her through it but nothing comes of it. We talk like we used to for a few hours then she gets upset again.

Like I said, I would do anything to do it all over again but show her that she was still the most important thing to me. I think it's rather interesting that as I am writing this it is storming pretty badly. I miss my baby sister, the way her and I used to be. It is my fault that her life is messed up.

School is finally over

I feel that this site is underused by me. I am heading to bed so I can be ready for Six Flags tomorrow.

Update on the ACS Organic Exam, I didn't get the 50 I wanted but I did get a 43 (I ended up with a B on the final). I am not sure this is enough for the tutoring position that I would like but I did well in the class. I guess there is always being a lab assistant!

Goals for the summer:

1. Research for an organic mechanism (transesterification, Diels-Alder, or possibly Aldol/Claisen.
2. Research for a biochemistry enzyme.
3. Research for my microbiology research topic.
4. Write a research proposal for independent research for Spring semester.

Later!

Great News!

I have received confirmation that I have a credit balance on my school financial aid. Which of course, is what I planned on since maybe February and have been waiting for this balance to be present. I will have $2000 of the $2500 cost of going to London for two weeks. I am pretty excited about going. I already have my luggage bag picked out from Target and will be getting it during the summer.

Speaking of summer. IT IS ALMOST HERE! I only have three more exams to take (all tomorrow). I have completed writing two papers for my Monday exam yesterday (turned in already) and have completed my ACS organic exam. If I overheard correctly...few students got 50 or above. But again, not sure if I heard correctly. But one can hope for their exam to be within that short stack of 50+ correct answered. It is out of 70 questions and since it is a standardized exam the national average is around 35 or 40 (it is low, that is what I remember the most). If I am among those that got a 50 or higher on the exam my grade is at maybe a solid B.

Well, three more exams to study for.Physics, Analytical, and Vertebrate Physiology left to go before the summer!

New Phone

New things in my life:

1. President of Student Alumni Council

2. Vice President American Chemical Society

3. I am entering my first photo contest and submitting works from my Florida trip in January. Hopefully one gets a place!

Phone ranting time!

Ever since I had a phone (which was my Junior year of high school) I have only upgraded my phone once on the time when my contract was up. I would always find a new phone that I liked and would go and purchase a used one until I was tired of that phone. From US Cellular I have had four different phones and of those only one was an upgrade. I have had one phone from AT&T and I disliked it from the day that I got it. I have recently switched to Verizon and have enjoyed their service (unless I am at school...then I will be happy just to have a signal). I have only one phone so far from them but have already started looking at a new phone. Mind you, I just got this phone in December. I generally enjoy the more complicated phones with all the new types of capabilities. The one I have now is wonderful but it isn't as savvy as I generally like. But the one that I would really like is the Droid Eris by HTC. The thing is I would never have gotten it since I would have to purchase it at full price (~$500) and that is a lot of money for a phone. Luckily, one of my professors has it and wants to switch phones since it does not do what she wanted it to do (or what it was advertised to do when she bought it). So, if things work out I will have a new phone. :D